-I'm going to a Haunted Forest tonight...first time ever going to a Haunted "Anything"...I'm planning on coming home with a bruised hand. Why, you ask? Because I hit things when I get scared...poor friendies...though I have been watching 24 lately so maybe I'll just go all Hardcore-Jack-Bauer and punch things I'm probably not supposed to punch/scale walls/run real real fast/army crawl/barrel roll....
-I have an extremely strong desire to spend a day baking a plethora of delectable treats.
-Strong Desire #2: To quilt. Items I need: Everything.
-Autumn smells pretty.
-I want a yellow typewriter and a pale robin egg blue KitchenAid.
-Yoga-ed for the first time ever the other day. I only burst out laughing once. I consider this to be an accomplishment. My thoughts? Liked it. It's hard to do what Man tells you to do when Man puts you in a position so you can't see the TV screen and you have no idea what Man means...and it feels amazing when you finish.
-Vanilla ice cream with Nerds in it. Yeah. It's that good. Made some for Roommate Laura yesterday, she took a bite, looked at me with happy eyes, to which I said "I know!".
-Fruit is Mother Nature's way of saying "I love you."
-Things I love seeing on campus: Hair bling. A bumper sticker that read "So many men-so many reasons to sleep alone." Unicyclists. The Quill and Sword Club. People wrestling to advertise for something...or something...Friends. People walking and reading at the same time. Scarves. Awkward guy/girl interactions. The Study Abroad Fair always brightens my day. Some people in shorts and t shirts with the person next to them in long pants with mittens and a coat on. Others.
-Looks and smiles always say more than anything else. Because you can't always control a look or the way your mouth curls up. Sometimes it's fake. Sometimes it's cold. Sometimes it's warmer than you wanted or expected. I can watch people's faces and know what they are thinking whether they say it or not simply be the softening/hardening of features during our conversations. Looks and smiles haunt me/warm me/make me laugh/intrigue me.
-Good memory: Pulling out stumps with my dad as a young girl. After helping dig around it I would drive the tractor while he would chop at the roots with an axe. Sometimes he would jump on the back of the tractor because I didn't weigh enough to pull it out. And if it wasn't coming out I would help brainstorm solutions with him. We made a good team.
-"Fakeness" and I don't get along. I can sense it and it makes my skin crawl. Just be real. Even if real is confusing and hard it's better than "fake". "Fake" doesn't solve anything. "Fake" makes things even more confusing...put fondant over a piece of wood and it's still a piece of wood. Sand the wood down, stain it, love it. (Random image? I know...that's what I get for watching some random reality show about cakes...).
-Speed kills. (Don't rush life/things...it ruins them).
-Mexican food is happiness in a tortilla.
-There is a difference between being likeable and loveable.
-I'm learning a lot everyday-I just hope I don't forget it all when it matters most.
-I used to be a decently serious person. I mean, I laughed and I joked around but when I was talking about something more serious, I was serious. Brandon taught me about 3 years ago that that doesn't have to be the case. I like combining both. And maybe it's because humor can come as a defense mechanism and it can ease the tension but is that a bad thing? I think it's an art form, and one I'm working on...but I like it. I also think there is a balance and a sense of appropriateness but hey, life is short-
-Pillows and blankets are perfection. I love being in a lil comfortable cocoon and talking with friends. Lovely.
-The other night I dragged a chair out onto our balcony to do some reading and I fell in love.
-Being outside is theraputic.
-When I graduate I'm just going to sit at home all day practicing the guitar. I think it sounds like a solid career plan. My parents are going to love it.
El Fin
often i stay up til 1am, 2am , 3am, 4am, and even 5 am hoping that you wrote something on this blog so i could feel your presence and be near my best friend and/or near the place we both fell in love with and found happiness once more.
ReplyDeletei love lists.
also, i hung with cath and chelsea tonight. urs and kiera were present also. benson too, though mostly he scoot scooted around. (james was in bed a sleepin). we played ticket to ride and i missed you.
and i laughed right outloud remembering how you DO in fact hit people when you get scared! yikes. hope yer friends are okays. i'm going to call you soon. hopefully it will be at an hour when you are awake and not when the world is asleep and i am alone, awake.
loves.
also, again. i forgot to add these thoughts:
ReplyDeletevanilla icecream and nerds= you would.
i miss BYU campus so much. i miss reading and walking. i always felt smarter when i did that, even if it meant i wasn't actually smarter b/c i was cramming for my test i didn't study for, but moreso the fact that i was being such a multi-tasker and LOOKED cool.
i loved wearing no coat and one of my numerous scarves while others (such as you) were bundled in sweaters and jackets and snow pants. (hah, maybe not sp, but almost).
i miss byu so much.
and you.
Becca-
ReplyDeletei love your blog! it always has such refreshing ideas on it. i love your point of view on things. haven't seen you in a while, but ive been thinking about you, how are you?